I am so grateful that someone, somewhere, figured out how to control anxiety and panic attacks with medication. Without medicine, I would be in some serious trouble. I feel like I would probably be curled up somewhere, crying, watching life pass me by. Would I be on disability? Would I have lost my job? What… Continue reading Love/Hate Meds!
During my worst days, my Xanax intake looked something like this: 2:00am: Wake up in a panic and take a Xanax. 6:00am: At exactly 4 hours, the sensations would start coming back. At this time, the kids were up and I needed to function and pretend I was fine. I would take another one. 12:00pm:… Continue reading Was I Addicted to Xanax?
Anxiety disorders come in different shapes and sizes: Panic Disorder: extreme fear, or terror, at a random place and time. You might feel a racing heart and shortness of breath. Social Anxiety Disorder: extreme anxiety in social situations. You might feel very self-conscious and fixate on others judging you. Specific phobias: You have an extreme fear of something… Continue reading Binge-Drinking
When I was younger, I expected to be married before my 23rd birthday. I was devastated when at 24, I was STILL SINGLE! I didn't even meet my husband until I was 27! I always expected to have children. When my first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage, I was overcome with sadness and an unexplainable emptiness. I never… Continue reading Giving Up!
Are there certain things you hate to do, like cleaning the bathrooms? Laundry? Cooking? Mowing the Lawn? Washing Cars? Life is full of tasks you "have" to do that you hate to do. When I have to do something I really don't want to do, I tend to obsess about it, get upset, stress and then do nothing! If you have high anxiety or… Continue reading Do More of What You LOVE
This post is not about MY anxiety over my kids going back to school. I have absolutely NO anxiety about that! I can't wait, actually! This post is about the kids who might be suffering from anxiety or some other mental disorder themselves and how they might feel going back to school. So many children these days… Continue reading Back to School Anxiety
I know I’ve been preaching anxiety meds and I mean it! You need to get panic attacks and Agoraphobia under control quickly! As I mentioned, I am also exploring the root causes of anxiety and panic, now that I can actually think. I have been doing a lot of research and it keeps pointing me to the… Continue reading Can it be my Thyroid?
When someone has Agoraphobia, the fears are somewhat irrational. Knowing that, doesn’t change the fear. If someone would say “you have nothing to be afraid of”, I would think “NO SHIT!” I knew there was nothing to be afraid of, but it didn’t matter. There is no “off” switch. The sensations are just there. One… Continue reading Short Stories – Walgreens
I never took pills up to this point in my life. If I had a headache, I would try to figure out the root cause and try to take care of it that way - drink water, eat something, or sleep. After my 2nd child, I noticed I was not being myself. I had always had… Continue reading Xanax Saved my Life
At the bottom of this post, I copied a section of the spreadsheet I kept during this awful time. I kept a daily log, but I hid rows to only show weekly, then monthly. It wouldn't fit otherwise! You will see that after two weeks on an SSRI, I reduced the Xanax from five times… Continue reading May 21, 2011 – The Worst is Over